2 months

Mom

Its been a pretty good week

Little Owen is doing great. He has been pretty good this week. Maybe he is getting over his colic. He did great in music class..he was really in to it and was smiling at me and talking baby talk at me when we got there. He sure seemed to know what he was telling me. I just went along with it..he is so cute. I love his big smiles with his cute little dimple.

I love my baby boy..its gonna be hard as hell to go back to work..but got to make the money to get him the things I want to get him and provide a college education for him...

Before I was mom--found on the internet

Before I was a Mom -
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom -
I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life
so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

7 weeks old

I love my little baby more and more every day

Owen with his midwife

Six Weeks Old and boy were they right about Colic

They say that Colic reaches its peak at six weeks and boy do I ever believe it. All Owen has been doing the last few days is screaming his lungs out, spitting up, belching and farting..its so sad. I myself feel like I want to scream right along with him. WAHHAHHHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAA!!!

I found a little lump in his left boob, sounds strange, but looked it up on aap and they say that it is normal. I am still going to call the doctor on Monday to see if I should bring him in earlier than his next visit or just wait. It sounds like it is not serious and it will just go away on its own..from what I have been reading. But want to on the safe side..the AAP, states that it is very rare to have breast cancer in an infant..so that put my mind at ease a little bit.

So OK so far I have a baby who has colic, his belly button is still oozing goo, and has a lump in his left breast area..boy oh boy enough to make me go insane..not to mention I have a cold sore and am freaking out cuz it is contagious and can get in their eyes..so I am a mess right now needless to say. Wes has been pretty calm through all of this and keeps telling me not to worry every thing is ok..along with all my wonderful friends and family constantly reminding me that at around three months it does get better and it will feel like bliss...

You may be wondering how I even have time to write..We got him to sleep..after about five hours of crying..by giving him a warm bath (which he hated more than anything in the world..) and swaddled him and stuck a pacifier in his mouth..(which were going to stop giving him at three months cuz I read it can cause mouth problems)..blah blah blah..but regardless he is sleeping and I myself am exhausted..

Despite all the crying he did manage to give me the most wonderful smile today..and he has the cutest dimples..that made my heart melt..he is a dream boat (when he is not screaming of course..LOL).

Six weeks to go until three months..and were at the peak of colic now so hopefully were only going to go up hill from here..